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Rockbox mail archiveSubject: Apology, and a period of break.Apology, and a period of break.
From: Paul Louden <paulthenerd_at_gmail.com>
Date: Sat, 20 Jun 2009 09:06:24 -0500 Apparently I'm too arrogant for my own good. Or something. It's not something I understand, and that's why I'm writing this. I write posts that, if received, I would read, nod, say "okay" and not get angry about. At least the vast majority of the time. I can think of maybe three instances where I've written an email or forum posting that I've looked back on and thought "I shouldn't have done that." But I get a very negative response, it seems more and more constantly. It's becoming somewhat clear to me that I'm not able to relate with normal people in a reasonable way. I lack the basic understanding of how people will read "tone" in things I type, where for me they're written word and should be read based on the specific meanings rather than anything implied. The latter method seems to depend too much on the emotions and even specific mood a time of reading of the user. To everyone I've upset. I'm sorry. It's not my intention. I know you don't believe this, and at this point I know there's nothing I can really say that will make you believe this. It's that whole "emotional context" thing that I don't really get. I can't say I'm sorry for my behaviour, since I don't understand why it upsets people. This is something I'll work on. I'm genuinely sorry that I have upset you though, for whatever reason. So I'm taking a break from active Rockbox participation. I'm resigning from forum administration. I won't be posting on these mailing lists unless it's a matter I think is extremely important, since my sincere efforts to investigate ways to improve Rockbox seem to just backfire. Since I'm resigning from the steering board too, congratulations to Thom Johansen who, I guess very briefly, was the first backup if I understand correctly. I'll still be in IRC though there, like everywhere else, I'll be trying to keep my mouth shut as much as possible. Once I understand whatever it is I don't understand right now (I can hardly say what it is, since if I knew it probably wouldn't be the apparent problem that it is) I'll try to be more active. But since I'm basically kicking myself back down to "simple user" status it means other people can decide whether I'm going to present a negative face to the project, rather than them currently being in the rather unenviable position of probably having to decide if the negative face I'm presenting is bad enough for them to have to strip from me the various positions I seem to have stumbled into. I can't promise I'll be silent. I am after all human. But I can promise that if something does inspire me to speak up, you're just arguing with another annoying user now and not someone who some people, apparently, may see as one of the "public faces" of Rockbox. I'm no longer a member of the project, and am now just a user like everyone else. Received on 2009-06-20 Page template was last modified "Tue Sep 7 00:00:02 2021" The Rockbox Crew -- Privacy Policy |